HAPPiNESS iS NEXT TO SUCCESS-NESS. :p
I woke up with a headache today. It's the only time I've realized that it's not very healthy to think of numbers in the morning.I looked in the mirror and saw that my hair was an ultimate mess. My eyes were still adjusting to the light of the bathroom and my mouth still had that mark from when I probably drooled last night. (Yes, this is a blog, I'm allowed to share as much as I like.) I could imagine what people would think if they saw me like this.
The expression on my face wasn't the same though. The smile on my face was still there. I recalled the things that crossed my mind last night.
First, I remembered Myca. Of all my friends throughout the years, she was the only one who stayed by my side. We may have been parted for a little while, *coughbecauseofacertainCLEMcough* and had a few misunderstandings, but still, she never failed to trust me. We were like brothers. Only sisters.
Second, I remembered Sir Aurel. He told me to say good morning to the teachers before I take a test. Seriously, I have no idea why I remembered this. It makes me smile for some reason though. I think it's because it reminds me of Sir Aurel's picture in YM. The irony is killing me!
Third, I remembered all my closest friends. They've been so busy lately, I can't even grab a chance to talk to them anymore. It felt kind of good when I recalled our happy times together. I actually laughed when I flash-backed to our Trinoma days. All the laughter and cheer we felt as we walked in and out shops, and at the end of the day we end up not buying a single thing. We children seriously don't know budget.
Lastly, I thought of the one person who makes me most happy. (He probably is reading this post right now. Yeah we all know who you are. ) I stared up my ceiling for an hour thinking of how he is and if he was thinking about me too. *coughASSUMINGcough* And when I closed my eyes and drifted away in my own imagination, he never fails to be there. If I were to trace a common origin towards all of the happiness in my life right now, it will always come down to him.
Wow. It was a lot to think of in just one night.
Finally, when I looked back up at the mirror to see myself smile like as if today was special, I made a small chuckle at what I was thinking about last night. I was happy. It wouldn't take a genius to see if my smile was fake or real.
Looking out my window, I blocked the sun's rays with my hand and grasped it. I thought, today is going to turn out beautifully. I've washed away all the tears that used to streak down my face.
After all, happiness is important and we all should work hard, ne? ^_^
Mommy's Smile. :)
She may not have powers,But have the hands that heal.
She may not know how to fly,
But undersands how I feel.
She might not have a magic wand,
But can point the wrong from right.
She may not have the strength,
But with bare hands she’ll fight.
She may not be perfect,
But who could ever be?
I like her just the way she is,
And how she smiles at me .. Ü ((=
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I was browsing through old files of mine, when I found this. It was a poem I wrote when I was 9 years old. (Yes, I've been writing for quite a while now.) If I could remember it properly, I bet it was 4th grade when we had a mother's day tribute in school. All my classmates made huge posters for their moms. It was a little frustrating to feel a left out because I'm not at all good at art.
When I sat alone that day, my teacher approached me and asked why I was feeling down when the rest of the class was excited and anxious to give away their colorful artworks. As a child, I was pretty embarrassed to tell the truth. I thought, everyone has ideas, except for me. I felt hopeless and well, brainless.
She told me there was nothing to worry about because even if I wasn't good at art or my drawings suck a thousand eggs, there are other things to show devotion to a person who gives you the love no one else could ever pay you with.
My brain then hatched an idea. I could write something simple that could make her smile.
This poem reminded me how important my mother is to me. As the days passed, I also realize how I've stepped away from her. There came times when I thought that she gets under my skin 'cause she doesn't let me get my way. There were also times when I knew that she was only doing this to make me upset, but then I realized that moms aren't enemies. Come to think of it, moms are best friends. We exsist only because them.
At those times when I hated her for scolding me and telling me things over and over again, I think about how I loved it when she reads me the same bedtime story back when I was little and how much I begged for her to read it to me again and again.
At times when she doesn't let me go out with my friends, I also remembered the time when she helped me take my first steps.
Whenever I said bad things to her I come to remember that she was the one who taught me how to say my first words, and it makes me cry when I think of how I loved how she smiled when she taught me how to say "mama."
She was there when I cut my knee at school, and until know is standing by me when I cry because my boyfriend and I had a fight. She used to wipe my wound with a warm towel and tells me, "Ikaw kasi eh." But deep inside she wanted to tell me that it was okay to cry.
Mommy's love is something not even a father can't compare. She works hard just to see us smile even just for a second. And yeah, even if she gets upset because of your obnoxious teenage-like behavior, she still loves you because no matter how much you'll grow up, you will always and forever be her baby. :)
After a While..
After a while you learn the subtle difference between holding a hand and chaining a soulAnd you learn that love doesn’t mean leaning and company doesn’t mean security,
And you begin to learn that kisses aren’t contracts and presents aren’t promises,
And you begin to accept your defeats with your head high up and your eyes open, with the grace of and adult, and not a grief of a child.
And you learn to build all your roads on today because tomorrow’s ground is too uncertain for plans.
After a while you learn that even sunshine burns if you get too much.
So plant your own garden and decorate you own soul, instead of waiting for someone to give you flowers.
And you learn that you really can endure…
That you really are strong…
And you learn that you really do have worth.
And you learn and you learn…
With every good-bye you learn…
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I felt a little emo writing this post. It's not very healthy for young girls to think of these things right after a beauty sleep. Seriously, it gives me stress and uncontrollable hiccups.
The whole poem made me realize how much I did learn after past experiences. For some reason it made me quite relieved that I'm over whatever it was I had lost before, and what I gained now. I feel more mature somehow.
You get me right? :D
I am..
An architect: I’ve build a solid foundation; I add more floors of wisdom and walls of knowledge.A sculptor: I’ve shaped my morals according to the clay of right and wrong.
A painter: with each new idea I express, I paint a new hue in the world’s multitude of colors.
A scientist: I gather new data; make observations and experiment with new concepts and ideas.
An astrologist: reading and analyzing palms of life and each person I encounter.
An astronaut: Constantly exploring and broadening my horizons.
A doctor: I heal those who come up to me for consultation and advice and bring out the vitality to those who seem lifeless.
A Lawyer: I’m not afraid to stand up to the inevitable and basic rights of myself and in all others.
A police officer: I always watch out for others’ welfare and prevent fights to keep the peace.
A teacher: I am an inspiration; an example to learners who want to learn the importance of determination dedication and hard-work.
A detective: I search for meanings and significance in the mysteries of life.
A pilot: I soar high up in the sky and learn to explore life through the bird’s eye view.
A musician: I express things from my heart through sounds I compose and reach the notes of success.
A priest: I share my thoughts with the people of God, and broaden the hearts of the church’s community.
I am, who I wanna be. :3
Which one are you? :3
I try to remember! :3
1. Everybody doesn’t have to love me.I don’t need to be loved by everyone I know. Not everyone I know I like either, so it’s only fair. My attitude can’t be good enough for everyone who know me. And life isn’t a popularity contest. I know that a lot of people have personalities that don’t match. I’m not perfect in everybody’s eyes. So they don’t all have to love me. =)
2. It’s okay to make mistakes.
It’s normal for a person to make mistakes. Noone’s perfect. And besides, when we do things wrongly, we learn from them, then after learning, we avoid making those same mistakes again.=)
3. Other people are okay and I’m okay.
I’m okay the way I am, and for me, other people around me are okay too. I don’t have to be judgemental, cause it only shows insecurity. I am contented with all of the people around me, even if not all of them fit my alter ego. Other people are okay, and I too am okay.=)
4. I don’t have to control things.
Not everything’s going to go my way. That’s why I should be ready for anything to happen, and shouldn’t get mad if what happened wasn’t really what I expected. Because things aren’t always going to go the way I planned it to be. =)
5. I am responsible for my day.
Whatever happens to my day is all my fault. If my day turned out great, then it’s my duty to congratulate myself ‘cause I was positive. If my day turned out bad, then I should know that I was the one who let that happen. I have to think that I, myself is the reason why my days go wrong, or why my days turn out right the way I plan it to be. I have no right to accuse anyone when my days turn out horrible.=)
6. I can handle it when things go wrong.
Like I said, not everything’s going to go my way, so I should be prepared and accept that this particular thing went wrong.=)
7. It is important to try.
When I fall, it’s never wrong to give another try. Nothing turns out perfectly without a first try. Practice makes perfect.=)
8. I am capable.
I don’t need anyone else to solve my problems for me. God gave me these problems for ma to solve. Noone can understand my problems the way I do. That’s why I am and should always be capable. =)
9. I can change.
Everyday is a new day. I don’t always have to be the way I was before. That was the past. It’s silly to think I can’t help being the way I am. I have to know what I should and shoudn’t be. I want to show people what I can become. I don’t need anyone to be responsible for my changes. I can handle myself. I can change. =)
10. Other people are capable.
I can always be a helping hand and a lending ear but just like me, other people can solve their own problems. I don’t have to take on other people’s problems as if they were my own. I can care and be of some help but, I can’t do everything for them. They know how to handle themselves. I’m just here to cheer them on. =)
11. I can be flexible.
There is more than one way to do something. More than one person has had the ideas that will work. There is no one and only “best” way. Everbody has ideas that are worth listening to. Everyone has something worthwhile to contribute to me. =)
Happy?
You're happy when:
-You wake up in the morning and smell waffles from the kitchen.
-You take a bath after breakfast and sing in the shower.
-You reach the last chapter of the book you're reading.
-You go to school and see your crush, first thing.
-You study with friends and end up talking about boys instead.
-You go out with your BFF and crave for things you wanna buy.
-You don't buy anything at the end of the day.
-You create a list of things to do the next day.
-You crumple the list and decide to let the day go by on its own.
-You get a text from your mom saying she bought you something.
-You smile at the gift you weren't expecting.
-You lie in bed thinking about how you passed your physics exam.
-You randomly laugh at what you remembered on TV.
-You get a phone call from your crush and he asks you how your day was.
-You eat the same old dinner you normally have and still compliment your mom about her cooking.
-You listen to music on your mp3 and not hear anything else.
-You get scolded by your teacher for beating up someone for a friend.
-Your Mom scolds you because the teacher called, yet smiles because you did it for someone Else's sake.
-Your Dad calls and says he's coming home early.
-Your sister asks you about her homework.
-Your brother eats the last apple strudel yet leaves you half the piece.
-You wake up the next day to find your dog sleeping by your feet.
-You smile and laugh at what happened yesterday.
-Your ex greets you hi and you smile and think it's good that you're friends.
-You sneak the bag of chips you eat in class.
-You look up at the sky and predict it'll rain.
-You run around in the park, soaked.
-You eat a whole bag of potato chips, forgetting the fact that it's 200 calories.
-You play your guitar singing "Our Song."
-Your siblings come out and sing along.
-You failed at that test and still managed to say, "Shit! I can do better!"
-You find a love letter in your bag pack.
-You receive your allowance.
-You read this post, smile and say, "Sus." :)
-You wake up in the morning and smell waffles from the kitchen.
-You take a bath after breakfast and sing in the shower.
-You reach the last chapter of the book you're reading.
-You go to school and see your crush, first thing.
-You study with friends and end up talking about boys instead.
-You go out with your BFF and crave for things you wanna buy.
-You don't buy anything at the end of the day.
-You create a list of things to do the next day.
-You crumple the list and decide to let the day go by on its own.
-You get a text from your mom saying she bought you something.
-You smile at the gift you weren't expecting.
-You lie in bed thinking about how you passed your physics exam.
-You randomly laugh at what you remembered on TV.
-You get a phone call from your crush and he asks you how your day was.
-You eat the same old dinner you normally have and still compliment your mom about her cooking.
-You listen to music on your mp3 and not hear anything else.
-You get scolded by your teacher for beating up someone for a friend.
-Your Mom scolds you because the teacher called, yet smiles because you did it for someone Else's sake.
-Your Dad calls and says he's coming home early.
-Your sister asks you about her homework.
-Your brother eats the last apple strudel yet leaves you half the piece.
-You wake up the next day to find your dog sleeping by your feet.
-You smile and laugh at what happened yesterday.
-Your ex greets you hi and you smile and think it's good that you're friends.
-You sneak the bag of chips you eat in class.
-You look up at the sky and predict it'll rain.
-You run around in the park, soaked.
-You eat a whole bag of potato chips, forgetting the fact that it's 200 calories.
-You play your guitar singing "Our Song."
-Your siblings come out and sing along.
-You failed at that test and still managed to say, "Shit! I can do better!"
-You find a love letter in your bag pack.
-You receive your allowance.
-You read this post, smile and say, "Sus." :)
Here's to All the Girls.
Here's to all the girls who used to be his number one. The ones who waited all night for him to call, only to check the caller ID the next morning & be disappointed. The ones who made it through that bitter break up, dried your own tears, & moved on with your life, only to have him walk back in it months later like nothing ever happened. Those of you who cried on the first day you talked again because you knew exactly where this phone call was going. The ones who listened to him say, "I only want to be your friend" one day, and the next, listened to him say how much heWe deserve something, and this is our tribute.
Here's to the ones that took him back, hoping that maybe this time, he was different, hoping that maybe people really do change. We listened to our friends tell us that we were stupid for even thinking about giving him another chance, caught crap from our parents, & even snuck around to see him for while. We went through the great stage with no fights all over again. We started this out thinking we would be just friends, & ended up falling in love with him again. We wanted nothing more in the world than to hear him tell us he loved us too, that even though things were bad in the past, they would be different this time. And when we finally heard it, it was like we were dreaming. This is for us. Here's to the ones who believed what he said, sat around all over again waiting for a phone call that might come in a few hours, or a few days. Here's for the tears cried and dried all over again. We wanted so desperately to believe that he was really busy, he couldn't possibly call us at that moment, or even that he fell asleep early. We trained ourselves to believe the lies because we wanted to believe we had found the one for us. We learned to settle for someone who didn't treat us the way we should be treated. Here's for the ones who did their hair and makeup & put on their prettiest earrings, only to hear him say that he couldn't see us today. The ones who never believed it when people told us there might be someone else.
Name: Angel Tolosa
Lulepap has been my personal blogging site since 2009. I write a lot about life and post fan fiction, and dedicate 80% of this blog on fingirling. There are so many things you can find around here. Skincare, make up, kpop, jpop, self-help, short stories and poetry. There’s a lot that goes on in this teenage mind of mine. Come explore life with me.
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